sya mula berfikir..

..haha..x sangka..akhirnya tiba juga masa dia sya kelihatan agak 'stress' bila sebut pasal kerja. dulu ok saja.. skrg..mula sudah rasa bedebar debar..macam bedebar mau tunggu result exam.. macam berdebar mau tunggu pii dating kali pertama..dan macam macam lagi debaran..oo ya..macam berdebar mau tunggu masa di ijabkabulkan( kan siti?)..hehe

ya..sya mula takut sudah sikit.

ps/ takut nie...takutnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...khahkahkhakhka..bah apa kau mau buat webber?

kalau ada..ada la.. kalau tiada pun x apa la..

the title: sum up my current attitude.

bukan saya..tapi ramai lagi yang ada attitude macam tu.
Begini bah cerita dia, saya sedang tunggu and tunggu peluang untuk mau kerja. Banyak peluang, tapi itulah, sya cepat puas hati kalau asal ada yang mau di tunggu. Tunggu saja..haha.. sya bagi sya punya masa sampai akhir bulan nie ( 2 hari lagi!)..before pii all out cari kerja. haha.

Cerita kedua?
apa bah sebenarnya yang sya mau nie? haha..susah nie kalau diri sendiri pun x tau mau buat apa. kebanyakan orang yang berjaya, sya rasa lah, sebab diorg tau apa yang diorg mau buat. bukan sekadar " kalau dapat itu, itu lah yang sya buat" punya attitude. haha..macam sya skrg..kalau dapat itu lah tu sya mau buat.

cerita ketiga?
uncle sya datang, pii bagi 'briefing' pasal the current isu yang mana ada lah kilang kilang yang kena tutup and lebih ramai orang jobless di malaysia nie. hurmm..betul kah ekonomi kita skrg betul betul jatuh sampai jadi mcm di america banyak betul orang kena lepas kerja nie? sya pun x tau situasi sebenar, sebab tengok and baca berita kurang nie..sejak sya kenal permainan poker nie.. mau 8 jam setiap hari main..kalah juga.. sambung cerita pasa uncle sya, dia cakap kerja yang hot skrg guru, perubatan n polis. Dia suruh sya pikir mana satu mau ambil.. perubatan memang out from the option la..tinggal ada guru n polis lagi.. polis? hurmm.. guru? maybe. haha..memilih juga sya nie. sya heran juga bah, keputusan degree sya okay juga..tapi susah ( kah malas mau cari!) mau dapat kerja nie. hurmm..

cerita keempat..
confident. sya selalu cerita yang sya kurang confidence dalam sya punya kemampuan sendiri. Selalu kita dengar atau baca orang cakap or tulis yang, " kalau kau sendiri x confident, apa macam org mau hire kita"..hurmm lagi..

cerita kelima..
driving.. semakin ok lah sya bawa kereta skrg. auto lah..manual..masih belum pernah cuba lagi. kahhkakha..tapi ok lah..1st day bawa..begegar lagi..tapi 2nd day bawa..ok sudah. laju lagi. berhati hati dijalan raya saja..haha

cerita keenam..
gambar yang sama budak tu..nama dia arora..macam sound sound lagu estranged. kiut juga la.. anak buah tu.. manja sama adik bongsu sya..tapi kalau adik sya teda dirumah..sya lah number 2 dalam hati dia..hkahka..selalu cakap sama sya " ebo, mau naik eta"..translate to.." webber sya mau naik kereta"... mau naik kereta saja nie budak...kiut juga la..tapi kadang kadang bikin pening kepala nie..yala budak budak..kijap kijap pandai kiut...tapi bila datang tu perangai buruk..alalallala..sya pun terus surrender...haha..

cerita ketujuh..
macam biasa..still jobless. hurmm sampai bila,,sya pun x tau. jarang sya berdoa nie minta Tuhan bagi sya kerja. x tau la. bukan sombong atau x percaya, mungkin sya belum sedia. tapi sampai bila kan?

cerita kelapan..
habis cerita. hahaha..

ps/ kalau la sya boleh tau apa yang sebenarnya sya mau kan senang... (confuse?)... chow :)

Pictures say a thousand words...

just another update..of my life..hehhe

just another not so important update from me..
there's nothing interesting happens in this past few weeks for me la, except for doing the work that i don't feel like doing.. and i'm proud to say i've finish doing the work with a high quality output...haha..and yes, i can't believe it myself. the one thing that you don't want to do, you do it well, but the things that you really wants to do,the end result always not what u're expecting.
and again i'm still enjoying myself being unemployeed..yes. it's true. i don't feel any pressure at all. maybe it's just my way to feel the pressure without feeling the pressure.

online poker game. do not try it people. it's very addictive. haha..and you lose some 'real' money too. talking about real life experience.Sigh!..hahahaha..

..suddenly i;m thinking of eating 'bosou udang'.. slurrrrrrrrppppp!!..sedap...terliur sudah sya. nanti lah balik kampung dulu.. hhehe.. i'm a very simple man...bosou + nasi 'o', it's more then enough to satisfy my stomach..haha..my favorite.. + campur lada lagi sikit..asam asam..pedas pedasss..alalallalala..terliur sudah sya nie.. BOSOU udang...SEDAP OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

ps/ one down...many more to go..hahah...lifee of life ( des'ree song) :))

another update..

the time now is 3 a.m.. and i'm still doing this damn work!
hahha..this is one thing that i like about me..
although i don't like to do the work, just for the sake of others, i'll keep doing it until it finish.
..i'm 50% complete..

:)

ps/ this is much better than complaining and didn't do anything...

quick update..

still doing this job that i hate to do..
kalau ini bukan kerja dalam group..lama sudah sya berhenti buat!
sekarang buat sambil memaki maki nie.
bikin panas.

kalau sya pentingkan diri sendiri..sya kasi tinggal jah nie.
itulah bah juga keburukan kalau kerja dalam group nie,
mau tidak mau kena buat juga part yang perlu sya buat.

budu betul! budu la!

current mood : Marah tahap dewa!

it's hard..

doing something that u don't feel like doing..haha..
..and i'm giving my middle finger to this work that i'm currently doing!...although it means i'm giving it to myself too.

can someone please slap me in the face..or to make it better mabye a real HARD punch.

haha..lama tidak rasa nie perasaaan. i started my entire january with a +ve thinking..and this work makes me think -ve again. and again.."hey work, i give u my middle finger!"


..... :) .....

i'm thinking negative in a positive ways..khahka..merapu lagi...apa? time waits for no one?? haha..Peduli lah tu time..! kan sudah kena marah!

PS/ update : tarik balik nie post.. ehhe..apamacam mau drem the impossible dream kalau kerja senang macam nie pun x boleh buat kan.. alrite..chowss!

sudah 5 hari..

.. saya tidak update nie blog.. bukan lama pun..
sekarang sya di kampung saja nie.. pii angkat angkat padi. hehe. dari duduk duduk tengok tv, or berdepan komputer bagus sya pii menabur budi. haha..

ada kerja yang terbengkalai. Kenapa? satu...malas. dua. bila datang mood mau buat semua peralatan,in my case, software, tiada. Mau download lagi. Habis download, hilang sudah tu mood mau buat kerja.

tidak banyak juga sya berfikir akhir2x nie berbanding masa sya ada kerja dulu. syok pula duduk duduk dirumah. yalah sama sama family lagi kan.. and surprisingly mum n me dad tidak pun sibuk sibuk tanya bila sya start mau kerja. haha..tua suda mungkin, bukan mama n bapa sya, tapi saya yang tua sudah. Pandai sudah befikir sendiri. mayb that 's what they're assuming.

o ya. sya baru dapat driving licience. setelah kali ke-3. haha..third times is really a charm for me. sya lahir pun 3hb. apa lagi yang 3? khaakhak..tunggu dan lihat..o ya sya pii ambik driving test sya hari tu pun masa hari 3. hkahkahk..selalu sya bangun pagi pun jam 3. gila la..haha..coincidence ataupun bukan..sya pun x pasti. kalau dapat bini satu 3 orang simpanan pun kira ok la..haha.. haiya..hutang rumah sya pun ada rm300 lagi mau bayar. hehe..

bah apa lagi.. mau relax relax dulu. kalau orang cakap time waits for no one.. sya cakap.. 'one no for waits time'..haha..merapu lagi..

bah yang tertangguh akan pasti sya buat. masa masa skrg lah bah mau buat..masa 'bukan tiada mau buat apa apa', tapi kurang sikit benda mau dibuat. siapa cakap orang menganggur tiada kerja? iskk..banyak kerja bah..kerja rumah. muakakka..okies.. bubyee..

Tag From C.Alv.B

RULES: ~ Bold the statements that are true for you. Italicise the statements that you wish are true. Leave the fibs alone. Then, tag 5 people to do the same test~

I miss somebody right now.
I love vacation.
I bake a cake.
I do not watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I am married.
I have tried marijuana.
I still love with my ex-boyfriend/girlfriend.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse.
I’m totally smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I am a millionaire.I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I am a pretty good dancer.
I love sex.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I am not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I’m shy around members of the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I have tried alcohol before.
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I love to chat (YM/MSN/etc..)
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I’m obsessed with girls.
I’m obsessed with boys.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I study for tests most of the time.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake’s slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve written in.
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I wear a toe ring.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I feel sad sometimes.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I love being happy.
I am on diet.

I am tagging : 1. Gade 2.MarkieKadus 3.Welzansaimon 4.AngelBear 5.Kukuanga

And i say it over and over again

"DREAM what you want to dream,
GO where you want to go,
BE what you want to be,

because you have only one life and one chance to do all the
things you want in life."

Rasa Sayang..SCC Staffs

This is one of the many reasons Y Sabah Credit Corporation or also well known as SCC rawksss!..

and this is not even a choir competition..
haha..enjoy the video..

can u spot me in this video??



....below is my blast from the past...kehoiii aramai tii... gooo IT..



ps/ perasan sendiri dulu

it has been 2 days..

sya x mandi. khakha..
kenapa? sejuk bah di tambunannnnnnnnn!!..tapi hari nie sya mau mandi lah..hakhkhaa
apa yang sya pakai sejak hari 3, masih sya pakai skrg.

Bukan selalu sya begini, tapi adalah bila datang malas yang melampau lampau. haha. Kerja sya dirumah..jaga budak kecil, tengok TV, bedepan komputer..
Kesian yang budak kecil sya jaga, umur baru 1 tahun ++, tiba tiba sakit. Mungkin tecium bau saya lah tu. haha..

syok juga bah x mandi nie..tapi tidaklah sampai tidak menjaga kesihatan terus, sya berus gigi + cuci muka saja.

malas, syok juga layan nie perasaaan. Menikmati keadaan orang yang betul betul x berguna. hahaa..tapi bukan semua orang malas x berguna bah kan? hehe.. cover lagi.

hati sya sebenarya senang hari nie, x tau kenapa tapi sya senang hati la. senang hati walaupun malas. Selalu orang susah hati kalau x buat apa apa. Ya kah? susah hati kah? yang biasa kerja sudah memang susah hati. Tapi sya senang hati saja.

Skrg sambil memblog sya dengar lagu, stop this world- Ne Yo, Mad - Ne Yo, T-shirt - shontelle, ur so gay - katy perry, it's yours - danity kane, Si tu Supieras - Final, Te Quiero - DJ flex sama Live your life- T-pain(feat rihanna).

saja mau blog kosong bah nie. Tapi dalam kepala sya, mau sambung buat kerja karang, sepenuh hati nie mau buat kerja yang terbengkalai sejak bulan 11 last year lagi. Hahha..nampak betul sya nie pemalas.. tapi sya tahu karang sya start buat kerja sampai pagi nie, maybe sampai jam 4..macam sya rajin jah bah hari nie..

bila sya pikir betul betul, saya sebenarnya buat kerja ikut mood sya. Kalau sya rasa sya mau buat, sya buat lah tu, kalau tidak, sya malas jah. Tapi selalunya masa malas sya lebih panjang dari masa rajin saya.

itu jah lah..haha..post saja pengakuan berani mati. X mandi 2 hari.. hahaha. 2 HARI SAJA PUN..bukan 1 minggu, macam dulu dulu time budak..Hahhahaha... Chow..

ps/ sya tahu kamu pun x mandi tu kan.. kahkahkhaka

-webber-

mau berfikiran positif sudah nie..
sepanjang masa..

2009 is the time for me to shine..

o yeahhhhhhhhh!!!..

ps/ cinta tolak tepi dulu.. :D
siapa2x yg jatuh cinta sama sya tu..sory ah..x dapat mau layan..
mau fokus untuk cari duit dulu nie..haha

what is the opposite of lazy??

..not lazy..
haha..i'm googling what word is the opposite of lazy..and the best 'google' answer i receive is 'diligent'...any other words that is opposite to lazy? any suggestion?.. hurmm.. "not lazy" is not an option okay..so is "unlazy"...haha..

ehemm..

ini bah..semalam tiba tiba ada sumandak cantik msg sya di tagged nie.. hurmm..bah sya dengan penuh semanga t pun mereply lah msg msg dia..pas tu baru 1 hari kenal dari internet, terus betukar number phone.. and start semalam bersms lah kami..
hurmm..tapi lain lain nie sumandak oo..pandai cakap yang bukan bukan..haha..i mean..pandai membawa untuk macam sms yang berbaur lucah lah..haiya..paning kapala sya..mukakaka..i mean kalau dulu dulu kali sya layan juga..tapi skrg macam sya malas malas sudah dii mau layan.. menyesal sya kasi phone number sya ( dia dulu bagi phone number dia, sya sms dia, tebagi lah phone number sya) khahkahka... cantik muka ni perempuan di profile dia la.. x tau kalau dia ambil gambar artis..abis muka dia macam muka artis korean nie..

haha..itulah terlampau tertipu kalau ada perempuan cantik (perempuan kah??) memsg..laju jah sya mereply..iskk..

kalau dia msg lagi..sya layan juga lah..tapi kalau dia start cakap yang bukan bukan..sya suruh dia baca "bapa kami" 1 kali, "Salam Maria" 3 kali, "Kemuliaan" 1 kali..hahah..

bukan semua, tapi berbahaya perempuan (perempuan kah tu) zaman skrg oo..haha..

orait... peace out!

the insecurity in me..

I am insecure in so many ways..
I am a very confident yet insecure..
I am afraid of letting go..

..and i am taking it slow, one step at a time..
..right now i am in a middle of a battlefield..
..fighting for the right things to do..
..trying to be someone that i want to be..

and again..i never thought that making a decision will be so hard..
i need to decide, i need to let go, and i need to find who's the real me..

..being afraid and insecure is not an option anymore..

BBkk

Happy New Year Everyone..
so this will be my 1st post on the year of 2009.
so here i go..



2009 will be a year where i am aiming to 'fatten' up my bank account..
haha..ya my resolution for this year basically to have more money..
that's about it..




i recently got my BBKK t-shirt..and i'm lovin it.
the picture below was taken by markiekadus..and the model..u guess it right..
mr.webber and mr.vister..haha enjoy..